Sticks and Stones have Broken my Bones (Namok)
May 9, 2013 20:26:41 GMT -5
Post by Shizuka Mori on May 9, 2013 20:26:41 GMT -5
Pain. Soul-crushing, heart-wrenching agony, the kind where your vision would turn to black and your skin would transform to white. The kind of pain where you felt as if the sun would never rise in the morning, the kind where your heart felt as if it were shattering into millions upon millions, billions upon billions of pieces every time it would beat.
/Running as fast as she could carry herself, a bright smile on her face, Shizuka burst through the crowded streets, determination in her eyes. In her hand, in the fist, a box was firmly held. Elation streamed through her veins as she turned the corner, narrowly missing a moving man with a box. She turned around while running, waving in goodbye, a heart-felt sorry leaving her mouth as the man waved back at her with forgiveness, muttering how fast teenagers needed to get places these days… or something like that. Giggling, Shizu could not wait to show her mother the little box. The red-head had saved up for months on this birthday gift, and she knew. She just knew that it would make her mom proud to call Shizuka Mori her daughter./
It was absolutely agonizing. Sitting there on the swing of an abandoned park, the Fighter’s eyes were filled with untold amounts of sorrow. Her head was hanging, chin to her chest, as if her neck was broken. She loosely held onto the chains which held her up. Shizuka was soaked. Through her crumbling mind, she wondered if the sky was crying. Just like she was.
/Dashing through her neighborhood, the look of utter joy shining upon her smile and glowing in her eyes, she waved hello to her neighbors ecstatically, and who returned the favor. It shocked them to see the girl so happy to be returning home, for it hardly ever happened. Usually, she looked sad, reluctant or angry, though it made them equally happy to see her in such good spirits. Perhaps the mother’s relationship with her daughter would finally heal, and that thought alone gave the good people jitters of excitement. Good for them!/
The air around the girl was suffocating. It felt as if her throat wanted to crawl its way inside out as her stomach was doing pinwheels inside of her. Her insides were knotting up so hard that it felt as if they would be permanently tangled. Leaning over to the side, she dry-retched, which was not at all surprising. Shizuka had already gotten rid of everything in her stomach earlier.
/Shizu practically broke the door down with the amount of enthusiasm she had as she threw it open, calling out to her mother in an excited tone, a look of elation and pure, innocent happiness on her face. Doing a quick glance around, she froze. The house was torn apart. The table to her living room was upside down, picture frames shattered on the ground. Books scattered everywhere, along with various other items. Smile still frozen on her face, she walked forward robotically, not even realizing that she was doing it. She went through the usual motions of first coming home, taking her shoes off at the entrance step, throwing her jacket in the corner, and setting her house-keys on the little table. Door still wide open, she padded in the house slowly, smile sluggishly erasing from her face. Barefoot, her toes pressed down on something wet, making a sickening squishing sound. Little by little, she lowered her gaze to look at what she stepped on. All she could see was red./
Tears were running down her face in steady streams, shoulders shaking with the effort to keep silent. Her eyes hurt from crying so much. Her head hurt from the shock and the breaking. Her throat hurt from throwing up. Her insides hurt from twisting so much. Her legs hurt from walking so far by herself, away from her house to this park. And her feet hurt, because they were still bare. Red poked from them, a mixture of her own blood and her mother’s.
/Screeching at the top of her lungs, falling to her knees, Shizuka instantly broke. Her hands clung to her face, and her fingers would have fully covered her eyes if they weren’t parted in the middle, too horrified to actually look away. Everything inside of her was shattering as she saw her mother. The woman was laying down, like she was sleeping. Though it was obvious she wasn’t. Her eyes were open and glassy, staring into nothing. Her moth was open in an endless scream, like the pain trapped inside her throat was trying to find its way out. In the middle of her head was a small hole. The ocean of red surrounding the pair was all around them, but Shizuka paid no attention any longer. She was to crushed, her mind crumbling into nothing. Slowly, she stood up. And she walked./
The rain was subsiding, though underneath her the drops of water still flew down, crashing into the mud. However, they were not fresh like raindrops from the sky. They were salty, and came from Shizuka.